When I sat down with a parent to discuss the child's academic progress during a parent-teacher conference last week, she said, I've looked you up and it seems we think alike. I would love to know if you have a blog. I was flattered that someone took interest in the way I was thinking, but I also felt my stomach tighten up. I still can't get over my fear of blogging. I am assuming that she's been reading through my Tweets. I have other parents who follow me on Tweeter and am beginning to realize the dynamics of Tweeting I bring for the parents who want to know how I am advocating for their gifted children. I now have about 10 blogs I wrote about a wide range of educational topics but are marked "private" because I am still very much afraid to let my writing known to the whole world. My stomach feels tight every time I think about blogging. Why? Well, let me first write about how Tweeter makes me feel safe.
- Write in 140 characters. The probably of grammar fairies getting at me is significantly lower than that of other forms of extended writing
- Practice Ramond Carver-like sentences
- Build multiple contents, interests, and professional learning communities all at once
- Less tension around my racial or ethnic identity and more confidence on my professional identity (Although Asian pop is not an underserved representation in the district, being a teacher is still new to most parents, children, AND colleagues. Don’t mind “sensing it” but it feels good to leave that experience behind once in a while)
On the other hand, writing has been an intimate spiritual activity since I was 6. Maneuvering through different languages and cultures, I found writing as a privatized activity only me and myself would share as a defense mechanism from the outside world. My voice was private beyond what languages could express. I also had my writing censored by my parents and teachers (I know, it was horrible!) as I morphed through the teenage years. Let me list other reasons I find blogging intimidating.
- It’s no longer private (Unlike essays and assignments I write for school. My writing experiences have been extremely private)
- Grammar fairies will get me
- My paragraphs may be incoherent
- Others will criticize my writing
- I can’t “sell myself” enough
In order to overcome some of the challenges above, I decided that I would do some research on how to cope with such irrational fear. The goal of blogging for me is to create a space for parents and educators to learn more about gifted education in general and would like to makes sure that I increase traffic as I write more. I will have to work on closing the gap and learn skills that would help me overcome it. Here are some resource I aligned to help myself overcome it.
The Blog Editor’s Cheat Sheet You learn how to make blogging as a central activity and strategically plan and execute it
Bryan Klem’s The Writer’s Dig: read a couple of great articles on the struggles of being a writer